The complexity of it all

I just had a very good nap and am full of energy and am full of enthusiasm to do something eventhough it is already 11pm on a Saturday and am at home. I should be reading my 7 Habits of Highly Effective People book or ironing my clothes or preparing handouts for my training on Monday or sorting out my bookshelves.... but er, maybe not that enthusiastic. If you asked me this last year, what I was doing at this hour on a Saturday, I'll be partying somewhere. But now... kind of mellowed down a lot.

My colleague asked me what was I going to do after work today because it is half-day today and I said with a happy face "I'm going home to sleep!" Which is a very original and sincere answer because I was pretty tired and sleepy and all I wanted was my bed and bolster and my basic human instinct told me that I'm going to sleeeeep when I get home. Simple. Then my colleague said I was not lady-like at all. o_o.

"Why!!" I demanded. He said girls are not supposed to say that because it doesn't look good on them. It seems I was supposed to say things like going home to clean up or do some housework etc etc.

omg. I just revealed a 'cho-lor' side of me? (cho-lor roughly means rough)

"Oh. No la. I'm going home to do some embroidery first. Then I'll take a short nap. I have to water plants too and cook dinner!"

And obviously it was too fake. "That's too much la" he said.

Well, whatever.

Actually, I do go home, clean up my house, do my laundry, make some tea while waiting for laundry, put on a facial mask, watch some anime (Bleach!), hang up clothes to dry and then only have a nap. See? That's a lot, right? That's very lady-like isn't it? I just didn't go on to mention all the nitty-gritty details maybe because my mind just said out loud that I wanted to sleep.

Hmm. OK. I conclude I'm pretty lady-like.

Just don't expect me to bow my head and smile shyly all the time.

I even went grocery shopping today and bought healthy stuff like fruits (I got seedless grapes! woohoo!), cheese, vitamin c and found this really nice bread by Gardenia! whoa. I think I will not buy any other kinds of bread for now. It is chocolate and raisin flavour and even has an 'atas' name like Gardenia Delicia. Haha.


And with that, there goes another week in another month in another year. hmm.... It was pretty much the same last weekend. And it was freaking Valentine's day and I was at work and I actually felt like it was just another day. Just like when it was Chinese New Year or Christmas. It felt like just another day. I wonder why. As this is my little journal, let me state that I have a lot of indescribable thoughts and questions and piece-o-minds. Like when humans started to wonder if the earth was flat or a sphere and if it was flat, and if we travel to the end of it, will we fall off the edge? Unfortunately, the person with that question never did find out because it was actually a sphere and he just kept on going until he reached a place where he thought was familiar because it is after all where he started. "oh, I'm home. I'm home! hurrah!" Or so I think. Or like when Newton found Gravity. He was wondering too. Or when Maslow decided on his Needs Hierachy. He was wondering too.


SO. Yeah. I'm at that stage in life where I wonder about these seemingly macro stuffs. Not stuffs like "What should I wear to the party?omg omg." More like a "Did the chicken or egg come first?" stuff. Indescribable. Its like I need to use more than that miserly 3% of my brain matters this time. But like how? I wonder.

I wonder.

I also wonder if I should continue to wonder or continue on moving and getting back on the track of what we call life (with destination unknown). Hmmm.